I ♥ You: a diary of fiction
This work is a diary of fiction, an exploration of my own identity and agency within the context of youth culture, something I never truly experienced growing up in the suburbs.
In our current social climate, there may never be a definitive resolve to the male-gaze. The influence of it affects everyone regardless of race, sexuality, or gender identity. To break a constant cycle of disenfranchisement of female/ femme identity is to establish trust. I’ve chosen to not only document self-expression, but to understand it and immerse myself in it. In this idealized fiction, we are all allowed to live the way we want to live and act the way we want to act.
Stemming from a long history of being surrounded by a strong female presence and men who firmly embrace feminism as allies, I have chosen to represent my fiction by taking a very personal, pseudo-documentary approach to this problem: to create a visual diary of these relationships and acquaintances. Utilizing a compact Yashica 35mm film camera, I’ve prepared myself to take a picture whenever and wherever. In addition to my own photos, I’ve also handed my camera off to others to create a more diverse space of relationship, identity, and to articulate an internal piece of me of which I’m not able to reach without photography. The process of this project has stretched my own understanding of gender identity and its relationship to myself and the city.
For me, this diary of fiction is a reality.